Friday, September 19, 2008

Reality Check

I work for Constellation Energy. Recognize the name? We're all over the news. If you haven't heard, in the latest of Wall Street ups, downs, twists, turns, …..MidAmerican Energy has offered to buy us for $4.7 billion dollars. All "T"s will be crossed and "I"s dotted by close of business today.

The news has still not sunk in. I'm really not sure what it means in the long run. I still woke up this morning, brushed my teeth, showered, got dressed, fed our animal children, woofed down a bowl of Lucky Charms, walked Henry, and commuted in (camera ready for drive by shootings) -- a day like all others. My morning. Simple. Predictable. Day in, day out. Wash, rinse, repeat.

I love my life. I love this routine.

Maybe I live in a dream world. Strike that…I know I do. I never thought something like this would happen. I never thought my routine would (or even could) change unless I chose to make it so. Similarly, I never imagined a course for Constellation that it didn't plan for itself. For the first time, I realize how fragile things are. One day good. One day…the bottom drops out.

I love my life. I love this routine.

Doing my job is key. Until I'm told different….that's my role. That has not changed. I can keep my routine. I can keep my paycheck. I can keep my benefits. Safe for now…but the grim reality that it could all be over tomorrow will haunt me.

I love my life. I love this routine.

2 comments:

Michael said...

I hear ya John...I feel a little bit better as more and more information gets released. Keep on keepin' on...do what we do best.

I can only imagine the fear that is surrounding you AND Sara...we will prove to the world we are a great company and bounce back.

And once we do....James Joyce to celebrate :)

John said...

Being a parent brings things front and center. I know you can appreciate that. Family is everything and forces you to do whatever is necessary.

Constellation has been an integral part of our family. It makes our world go round and round (in more ways than one).

Surreal times. We're literally part of the story and history.